Tuesday, March 31, 2009

A little more "randomness"

Yes....I really should be in bed....I don't know what the heck it is, I have a hell of a time crawling out of my warm, cozy (and all to myself at that point), big, fluffy bed in the morning and yet...here it is 11:00 and I'm awake all by my lonesome.

Today was a great day for being a total clutz. I started off by dropping my mouse in the garage (this was on transport from upstairs to my office) and having it literally "explode", then I proceeded to dump my bowl of yogurt and fax seed/meal all over me and my desk (have you ever had to pick up 2 tablespoons of that "nutty" stuff?...not to mention, the yogurt!). Then we were off to spilling a hot green tea all down my t-shirt and over my hand...but we weren't done yet! One more burn when transporting Tony's (just boiled) soup from the counter to the table (this one wins the prize for "most painful and still hurtin'") and then to top it all off....cut my finger slicing pineapple. Good thing I didn't trip over the dog on my way to the washroom, and end up with my head in the toilet!

My sister e-mailed me my "final confirmation" notice from the airline today. I asked her when we'd get our actual plane tickets....she said that the e-mail I just printed off "was" the plane ticket. It's no wonder there's chaos in this world!

I made a really yummy dish for dinner...."chicken and 20 cloves of garlic". Very simple recipe....take 4 chicken breasts and 20 cloves of garlic, cook the chicken for 4 minutes (2 minutes each side), then add 3/4 25% less sodium chicken broth and 1/4 cup Caesar salad dressing. Cover the skillet and cook until done....add Parmesan cheese and serve. Everyone loved it! In fact....no one left anything on their plates! I served it with roasted Yukon potatoes, carrots and asparagus (for the more mature).

Today I got a call from Aleks' teacher while waiting for Krystina after-school...*sigh*...it wasn't good. He's 12 and turning into his older brother. Tony had a complete freakazoid because....well, with all the crap we've put up with his brother...this was just sooo not Al! And when I said "disrespect" and "teacher" in the same sentence....considering we just got the call from Teddy's teacher yesterday about his pathetic grade/effort in French. Well....I think he got a "shake-up". Sometimes parenting "sucks".

Why do dogs eat their vomit? I know...random, but....eww...I will not have the dog lick me...gross.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Random as well

I visited with my fil today and while he was grumpy...he was tolerable. I fixed him some oatmeal and a cup of coffee, stole a jav and a scone myself. We chatted about the war and my mil...it was all good. He turns 87 on the 20th of April....I can only hope that I live that long.

Krystina wants to join soccer....so I guess I'm back out in the rain.

Teddy's failing French. He can't stand the course and calls it "gay"...while I can totally agree with him (I failed French 8...the only class I ever failed....the only class I ever did bad in) I have to stay positive. *sigh*...guess I'll be talking to his teacher tomorrow.

Aleks snickered tonight when Krystina used the word "pussy" while reading. Good grief....I have enough stress!!!

I worked out today....I'm shooting for 6 days in a row this week.

I'm soooo tired of salad.

I decorated the house "Eastery" like.

I also pulled down my rolling suitcase from the attic.

I was thinking today that in order for me to get $1,000.00 US....I'll need to spend $1,200.00 Cdn....grrrr!

I'm so totally looking forward to the trip and yet....I'm so totally looking forward to coming home...already.

I've lost 3 lbs.

The problem with not having any wine is that I'm wide awake when I should be in bed. And if I were to go to bed right now....I'd lay there awake "thinking". But if I don't go to bed now....I'll be bagged in the morning. I just can't win.

I took Krystina to the clinic today...she's got a sore in the corner of her mouth that won't heal....corticosteroids....the magic cream. Not sure if I'll fill the prescription or if I'll keep putting Vaseline on it...I hate anything with drugs. She's too young for that stuff! We waited for an hour just to get a 60 minute shot with the Dr.. Damn I love that little critter!

My sister ran 24 miles yesterday. 24 miles!!!!! I told her she was "insane"!!! I told her that I spent an hour at the gym on Saturday doing a "leg" workout and could barely function the following day. 24 miles?!?!?!? It takes me an hour to drive that distance in "good" traffic!! But *whew*...she gets to "back off" a little now in the last stretch before the run. And then she tells me that she just hopes she can do it in under 4 hours! (she did the Vancouver Marathon in 3:34) Ummm....I'm going to kick her ass...we're not traveling all that way for "mediocrcy"! KIDDING!

I made homemade meatballs...they were a hit. We'll leave it at that.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

The quiet

I'm enjoying some peace and quiet. Aleks and Krystina are asleep, Tony's asleep (don't tell anyone but he's not had any alcohol for a 3 1/2 weeks and well...he kinda slipped last night....so he's got a big of a noggin quaker), Teddy's watching "Saving Private Ryan" (what a depressing movie), the dog's snoring in her bed and me???...I'm just enjoying the quiet. Actually I'm preparing myself for three weeks of hell!

Before I head off to Boston I have to get a huge load of work done, plus my Uncle is coming from Slovakia 6 days after I get back, sooooo.....I have to (yes I do!) clean my house...really, clean it!...before I leave, before he gets here. It's my niece's birthday on the 25th, so I need to remember a gift. Very good family friends' birthdays are on the 17th and 20th...need to remember cards. I have 60 bottles of wine that need to be bottled on the 5th. I need to cook up soup, goulash, chili and spaghetti sauce before I leave....or they'll starve! Can't forget to get travel insurance or a couple more memory cards for my camera! I also need to refill my bp meds, which really means a trip to the doctor, which means I should also get my physical done. The list is endless....

I had a "sit down" with the girl last night, she started crying when we talked about me going away. She's a little sensitive one....thankfully, I haven't told her how long I'd be away...I think in her mind it's only a day or two. The boys will have their hands full!....although I did promise to bring her back a "Webkinz" and I'm hoping that I'll find something that we can relate to Boston and the east coast, ie. a lobster or crab or something?!

I should really try and get my hair done before I leave as well...or maybe I should treat myself in Boston?

I've never been away from my family for more than 2 nights....it's going to be tough on me too.

Our future

The other night I sat down with Tony, who was watching an episode of "Glen Beck" and I tried really hard to focus. As mentioned before, I have no interest in politics and try to avoid it as best as I can. This is not to say that I'm "ignorant" on what's going on, who's in power, who's smoking which type of cigar, who's stealing from who. I just don't have any interest in listening to politicians and their lying, scheming ways. I'm of the thought that people will say whatever they can to get themselves elected, to look like the "good guy" and then they'll just end up screwing it all to hell after. You have ways to save this household of 6 (plus beast = 7) some money, feed us all on a budget, keep my sanity?...I'm all ears. I do my duty and vote but that's pretty much where it ends.

So anyways....this post actually has little to do with actual "politicians" per se....I was sitting there listening to how the economy is spiraling down the proverbial toilet, when I turned to Tony and said..."It's amazing how just a short year ago, things were going so well and now...." And it's true, just a year ago (not even) things were looking good....now, I'm watching all the pennies, trying to cut back on our grocery bill, adjust my phone plan, rent less from the video store, not drive the van so much.

It's hard keeping a family of 6 afloat, even when one of us has a pretty decent paying job. Just when I was going to "cut back" on my business...I have to keep it going just so that Krystina can join soccer and Aleks can go to camp and Teddy can keep eating "Crustini's"! I wouldn't say my kids are "spoiled" but they have what they need and enjoy little "extras"...I've warned them though...things will definitely be a little "tougher" and trips to the video store will have to be cut down dramatically. We rarely eat out, so that's not going to be an issue.....I am however, buying "store brand" items rather than "name brand" to save a few pennies here and there....they can't tell the difference anyways. All I'm eating is salad, so I just need to fill my garden with greens and packs of seeds are cheap. ;o)

The world is a scary place nowadays and even the "best off" aren't totally safe anymore. Am I sitting up at night worrying about the future? No, not really but I know it's going to be a heck of a lot harder for my kids to get ahead. I just hope and pray that they get at least some of the same opportunities I had. I think my biggest fear is that when I'm 65, I'll still have all three kids living at home!!! Kidding!

Friday, March 27, 2009

Happy Spring!

Weekend is here

Not that it really makes much of a difference to me. The weekend, that is. Every day is jam packed with all kinds of duties, responsibilities, trips to the grocery store, dog walks, gym trips, cooking...you get it....and already knew it. But it is nice to have the kids and hubs home...well, one "kid" is missing. Teddy's gone to his buddy's and is spending the night...not sure why...they're probably just sitting there side by side playing the same game on two computers....grunting and shouting at the screen. They do that even when they're apart...except that they're in two separate homes, with the phone stuck to their ear...grunting and shouting. Oh well...they could be doing a hell of a lot worse.

Al and Krystina sat down and watched "Marley and Me" while I finished up a project I had been working on....Al thought it was great...Krystina left just before the ending....Marley was about to kick the bucket and well....she's got in an intense soft spot for animals...*hmmmm* I wonder if it has anything to do with the fact that I had to put our pooch of 10 years down when I was 8 months pregnant with her?! It's amazing how much attention a woman with a big medicine ball under her shirt, bawling her eyes out can get. "Would you like to keep Keisha's leash?" *sob, wail*...."Noooooo, nooooo, please nooooo". I loved that dog.

I spent the afternoon with the accountant that I deal with. I can't say "my accountant" because he doesn't do my taxes and he doesn't pay me....but he has given me the majority of my clients (some of which are still his and some of which are only mine now...shhhh). Anyways we met today regarding the whole "bad partner/good partner" deal...what a mess...I so want that nightmare to be over. So yeah...two hours of being scrutinized and questioned as to why "this is here" and "that's there" and "why did you do that" and "where is this"...blah blah blah....it all ended up really well, although I felt a little uncomfortable as he seemed to enjoying taking peeks at my chest...NOT that there's much to check out, but still...his eyes wandered...okay. Gosh my punctuation sucks! Anyways...love the guy...he's really quite nice. He's just a little guy with a deep voice...drives a big truck....lol...no seriously....really nice guy. So I ended up going home with a list of things that need to be reconciled, looked over, fixed, changed....I've got a few hours ahead of me.

I know I said I had some other "real" things to write about...and I will get to it...it's been busy. I should have more time tomorrow...

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Another day

Man is it cold today....I can't seem to warm up. I had one of those nights where I hung on to "almost" sleep for two hours before I actually "zonked". So that would make a "sleep time" of about 1:00 a.m. The alarm goes off for Tony at 6:15...which means I'm in and out of a comatose state until I actually crawl out at 7:15...which was sooo mighty hard this morning. The sheets were so warm, the room was so cold, I was so sleepy. Oh well...I have responsibilities. The boys are up and ready to head out the door, the princess is still sawing...for another 10 minutes, until I go in there and cuddle up to her, kissing her cheeks, rubbing her back, yelling in her ear "time to rise, my buttercup"! Kidding...I'll whisper.

A busy couple of days coming up. This morning after dropping Krystina off at school, I head over to West Van (about 40 kms) for a client meeting (good partner) and then out to East Van (another 35 kms) for another client meeting with a client soon to be defunct ("her" I like, the way the owners run the business...nada). Hoping to make it to the gym and then it's my usual wifely, motherly, daughterly, dog owner duties. Tomorrow it's another meeting in Vancouver (35 kms) with the accountant I deal with to go over the books for the "good partner"/"bad partner" situation...we'd like to wrap that garbage up.

So yeah....lots of stuff going on.

I did go and see my fil yesterday...brought him some homemade goulash, a fresh grain bun and a caesar salad. He was in a decent mood, so I sat with him while he ate and we chatted about things. It was a decent visit.

Oh...well, the girl is up...I should get a move on. I have a few things I want to talk about here....one of them, believe it or not...actual involves the economic situation and politics *gasp*...I know! "Me"?...talk about something of "real importance"...unheard of!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009


Well Chris....I tried the changes you gave me and unfortunately it blew my side bars out the door. Actually it just made my entire blog a single column (rather than the middle one with side columns).

Sooo....not sure if you might want to give it another chance?? Or Erik??? Anybody? I made a mean banana bread I could ship off to whoever fixes it for me? ;o)


"Note: In Canada we currently only send SMSes to Bell Mobility subscribers."

And this....is the reason I can't follow, or be followed by my Twitterer's! Funny thing though....it worked for a few months....go figure?!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I think the worst is over

I've now been able to go a full 6 hours without kissing the toilet. I guess that means I should be back to my regular grind tomorrow?!? Whatever it was, be it bad sushi or the stomach flu...it was bad, very, very bad. Mind you....I was able to go a full 32 hours without eating and was able to sit all bundled up and get through a good amount of paperwork....just to point out the positive side. But I'm weary, it wears you out and now....I'm going to go and cozy down under the covers...and hopefully stay there through the night.

I'll take a look at the html problem tomorrow as well.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Something wicked this way comes....

Something dreadful has taken to making my body it's new home, and I'm not liking it! I'm cold, I've got upper stomach cramps, I've been ralfing, I've been pouring, my head hurts....quite frankly...I feel absolutely disgusting. Tony's bringing home the toilet paper and I've got the Maalox.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

We all have our stories...don't we?

I dwell on the fact that "my situation" is so unique and so desperate....well it's not....and I know that. Everyone has "shit" going on their lives.... I'm not the only one with a lunatic mother (if I can even call her a "mother"...she always hated that term...it was always "mom"...neither fit for me), alcoholism, drug addicts, pornography, abuse....the list goes on)...I have to aspire. Life is really good for me....life is good for all of us, if we just take a look at what we have close at hand....forget all the other shit. Memories...I always take comfort in memories...I have so many that make me smile. I have children that make me smile. I have a roof over my head. I eat well. I was able to go out and buy new boots and make up. Hell...I'm going to Boston. Life is damn good...despite all the shit! We've got one shot at this life here on earth!..and whether you believe that we carry on or not...give it your all here...it can always be so much worse!! My mother is alive, despite the fact that to me...she's "dead". I know that whether or not I am loved by her...I am loved by others.... You have no idea what goes through my head....life can be shitty...but life is what we have...enjoy it...while you can....cuz you just never know.

On that note...I'm finally getting the other "lump" checked out...I'm not scared....I'm "almost" not scared about the flight to Boston either....I'm working out, I'm happy, I'm healty, I can't sleep...but that's okay....music is always my comfort..."don't forget to turn out the light"......................

I've a bit to complain about tonight

So the other thing that has burned my goat tonight...ugh! I downloaded another 20 or so fantastic songs and...whamo!..they're gone! Why? Because I was too stupid to delete them from my "library" before they had a real chance "melt in". Here we go again..............

Can you help me?

Can anybody help me? I know there's not a whole tonne of you who read this poor pathetic excuse for a blog...but I can't seem to figure out why the title "Feeling" is below my mood icon? I have so many courses I'd like to take...html, photography, CS2 PhotoShop, Simply Accounting, QuickBooks, scrapbooking, sushi making.... Anyways...I'm getting off the topic here....anybody?

Also...because I can't post the damn html template here...if you can help, in any way....I can e-mail the template/part of the template to you...to take a peek at.


Birthday Boy

The birthday boy, sitting all nice and pretty....secretly scheming all kinds of way to "brown nose" his mother into getting all that he thinks he deserves!

I liked this photo better but Tony said I "cut off his head". If you look closely you can still see the scar he got back in 2004...from the pipe. I can show you the original photo, if you like????

Happy Birthday #12 bud...we love you!

Friday, March 20, 2009

I'm such a sap

I haven't bawled that much since "Awakenings"! Sat down and watched "Road to Rodanthe" or whatever the hell the movie's called....bawled and bawled and bawled...good thing I was on my lonesome!

I'm such a girlie girl!

Songs added to my playlist

It was that kind of evening.....................

Chris Cornell - Climbing the Walls
Pat Travers - Crash and Burn
Frank Marino - Dragonfly
ButtHole Surfers - Pepper
Cracker - Low
Traffic - Low Spark of High Heeled Boys
SuperTramp - School
Ten Years After - I'd Love to Change the World
Emerson Lake & Palmer - From the Beginning
Big Sugar - Let it Ride
Gerry Rafferty - Baker Street
Bruce Cockburn - Tokyo
Matthew Good - Carmelina
Dave Edmunds - I Hear You Knocking
Alice in Chains - Rooster
Alice in Chains - Nutshell
Gary Newman - Cars
The Trews - Tired of Waiting
Hooters - All you Zombies

Lack of words

I've sat down here a couple of times over the last couple of days wanting to write....but nothing seemed to flow. My mood (despite the icon to the left...which I still need to fix the location of "Feeling") has been "mheh". It might have something to do with my recent (well long time coming) decision to change something about myself...which I won't go into details right now but....it's a good thing....I just don't want to appear a failure if I become too weak.

Anyways...my day yesterday. Ahhh yes, I could've used a drink right at about 4 a.m....when my fil called. (but I didn't) I just spoke to him at 6 p.m. the night before...he called asking me when I'd be coming to pick him up for his cystoscopy. I told him I'd be there at 9:15 a.m....well, he was ready to go at 4 a.m. When I showed up, the raised voice and the "Where have you been? I've been waiting for...." (I cut him off) started. I told him I'm here on time, that it was 4 a.m. when he called and we were all sleeping. Meanwhile he's standing there in his boxers and t-shirt. We've got 20 minutes to get out of there and he starts ranting about something else. We left just when we should have arrived at the hospital...good thing it was only 10 minutes away.

The rest of the visit doesn't need to be written about in detail...it was the usual batch of frustrations of getting him undressed, dressed, rushing to the bathroom, swearing at everything in sight, telling me to take him to the bank, arguing with me and the bank attendant about where his money was, wanting me to take him back to the old house to get his can opener and knife sharpener (which I refuse to do...this, and Tony has reamed him out as well...is my bil's job)....I can handle most of it, but the swearing (it's pretty bad) on my answering machine and in public....well, it's a little embarrassing.

On a different note....I leave for Boston in exactly 4 weeks.

It's Aleks' birthday today....my little boy turned 12 at exactly 4:38 this morning. I remember certain things about each child when they were infants...I remember a lot, but certain things really stand out. When it comes to Al...he hardly cried...he would just lay in his bassinette (sp?) and stretch his little body, while making "grunting" sounds. I remember holding him in front of the bathroom mirror after his nightly bath and (he would always like to curl up in the fetal position) hold his little round bottom in my hand...I distinctly remember a yellow sleeper that he would wear. He had such awful exczema (still suffers from it, but not as bad) and would always have tender, red skin....everywhere. But he was such a cutie...in my biased opinion. Today he's 12, one year short of the "teens"....it'll be a year of change for him I'm sure... The boys are so different...while teddy was close to 13 (he was still 12) when we sent him to Beijing...there's no way that Aleks would be okay with going...and neither would I.

So on that note...I better get my act together. We picked up a iHome alarm clock, charger, docking station...not even sure all that it does...but I still need to go and pick up the cake and a couple of sweat pants...Krystina "bought" a new set of ear phones for his iPod. His evening meal request is "hot wings", mac and cheese, cucumber and canned corn....all his favorite....Tony and I will be having salad. ;o)

p.s....please disregard any spelling/grammar issues....my sleep has sucked immensely.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

So excited

I'm just so excited, I can't contain myself. I get to go and spend my entire morning with a very, grumpy fil....yay!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009


A quick update here....it's already past 9 and I have to get mine and my girls' rears out the door. I'm taking her to the Aquarium today, but before I do that...I have to collect and sort out all the laundry....Grandpa takes care of the rest! Yay! But yeah....as you can see by the photo above...the hubs knows how to make me choke up! Along with the gorgeous roses...I was very, very spoiled with the newest (and final....for now) addition to my camera lens collection. He ended up selling some of his war memorabilia (always his intention) and ended up making more than he thought....so I reaped the benefits. It's all good in this relationship...we take care of each other.

Anyways...it's not snowing, but it is miserable out there....and I promised the girl, sooo.....we better get a move on...I'd like to leave the house in 45 minutes and I'm still in my pj's and she's still in bed!!!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Monday, March 16, 2009

Happy Birthday to me...

Oh I got the most wonderful gift....the husband of mine knows how to tear me up! Stuff to come!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

It's tough being a good parent

As you know, Teddy is a teenager. He's very typical in every way and I know in the end...I wouldn't want him to "change". But wow....it's been difficult trying to communicate and get through his skull as of late!

The mouthing off, the laziness...drives us crazy! And then....his report comes home...nothing new on that one, only confirming to us that he'll most likely not graduate with his peers. He just doesn't give a crap about school whatsoever. There's no effort, he's not handing in assignments (of course when I ask him if he's got homework..."nope, it's all done")...funny thing is, he's at school (because he gets a ride with his friend) an hour and a half before his first class (his buddy starts earlier)...you'd think the homework could at least be done then! To boot...his buddy is on the honor roll!!! We would never put that kind of pressure on our kids but his buddy plays World of War Craft and still manages to get his assignments in and become an honor roll student. All we've ever asked of Teddy is to put the "effort" in...we don't care about A's and B's...just the effort. It's spring break now and Teddy said he's going to complete his assignments over the break....I'm holding my breath and also...why wasn't it done before?

We're at a loss here...not knowing what the heck to do. Do we just step back and let him fail and find out later? Tony says in the end...he'd rather have Teddy at home, playing the stupid game (weekends only) then having him hanging out in the malls or doing drugs...well that's a given, but it sure does get frustrating. There's just no desire to do anything. He gets to apply for his driver's this summer....doesn't even seem into that?! Hell, I was at the motor vehicle branch's office 5 minutes before they opened, the day I turned 16!

Deep down he's a decent kid. We just have to get through these next few years....and then we get to do it all over again....times two!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Spring is coming back?

While it was still freezing cold last night, it wasn't as intense as in the last few days. Apparently two days ago it was the coldest March day since 1951, dipping down to -5. Walking Krystina and the dog to school today, the sun was definitely warmer and it's supposed to head up to 8 - 10 today.

I had a visit with my fil yesterday, a little disturbing on my end....I seriously think he's starting to lose it a bit....which is hard to see and hard to deal with. I supposed if I'm lucky enough to live to 87, I'll pretty much be the same way.

Spring break is on it's way next week. I wish people would stop reminding me of that ;o). Kidding....it's always great fun to have all the kids home, all day long....I think I'm solidly book with client meetings. ;o)

It's a day of work, booking dentist appointments for the kids and cystoscopy appointment for my fil, figuring out what to make for dinner and general chaos.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

So much going on

I am still taking "time out for me", but it's been intense this past week. What with the fil falling down and fracturing his spine, dealing with him, work, my dad, the kids, the dog, the intense pain in my legs (my fault...I keep thinking I'm 25), paying the bills, keeping up with the bills, coming up with a new menu each and every day (it's hard to keep 6 people fed), dealing with snow!

Speaking of which.....another dumping and record low temperatures! It's supposed to drop down to -6 (-10 with the wind chill factor) tonight. Car were careening, sliding, smashing...I stayed home!....the snow was a surprise and a most unwelcome addition to anyone's day. I myself, just about landed on my ass a couple of times walking Krystina to school...it was that bad here. It's pretty much all gone now but...*brrrr* is it ever frigid! But hey...who the heck are we to complain...it's -40 in Edmonton!

I turn 42 in 6 days...*ralph* and I board a plain in just 30 days after that...*shudder*.

The boys are fighting right now and I'd like to tear a strip off of each of them...it's normal...I know....but the 15 year old is being an "a-hole" to his little brother, who isn't being any better only because he's "learned from the best". *sigh*...they straightened out when?.....around 25?

I'm listening to Simon Cowell with his put downs and criticisms....the kids have shut up and are waiting.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Haunting me

Nightmares....I'm afraid to go to sleep. When I finally fall asleep the nightmares begin...I wish they would end with each wake up, but they don't...they continue...and add on....I'm afraid to go to sleep.

Something worth reading

'They're standing on the corner and they can't speak English.

I can't even talk the way these people talk:

Why you ain't,
Where you is,
What he drive,
Where he stay,
Where he work,
Who you be...

And I blamed the kid until I heard the mother talk.

And then I heard the father talk.

Everybody knows it's important to speak English except these knuckleheads. You can't be a doctor with that kind of crap coming out of your mouth.

In fact you will never get any kind of job making a decent living.

People marched and were hit in the face with rocks to get an Education, and now we've got these knuckleheads walking around.

The lower economic people are not holding up their end in this deal.

These people are not parenting. They are buying things for kids.

$500 sneakers for what?

And they won't spend $200 for Hooked on Phonics.

I am talking about these people who cry when their son is standing there in an orange suit.

Where were you when he was 2?

Where were you when he was 12?

Where were you when he was 18 and how come you didn't know that he had a pistol?

And where is the father? Or who is his father?

People putting their clothes on backward:
Isn't that a sign of something gone wrong?

People with their hats on backward, pants down around the crack, isn't that a sign of something?

Isn't it a sign of something when she has her dress all the way up and got all type of needles [piercing] going through her body?

What part of Africa did this come from??

We are not Africans. Those people are not Africans; they don't know a thing about Africa .....

I say this all of the time. It would be like white people saying they are European-American. That is totally stupid.

I was born here, and so were my parents and grand parents and, very likely my great grandparents. I don't have any connection to Africa, no more than white Americans have to Germany, Scotland, England, Ireland, or the Netherlands. The same applies to 99 percent of all the black Americans as regards to Africa . So stop, already! ! !

With names like Shaniqua, Taliqua and Mohammed and all of that crap... and all of them are in jail.

Brown or black versus the Board of Education is no longer the white person's problem.

We have got to take the neighborhood back.

People used to be ashamed. Today a woman has eight children with eight different 'husbands' -- or men or whatever you call them now.

We have millionaire football players who cannot read.

We have million-dollar basketball players who can't write two paragraphs. We, as black folks have to do a better job.

Someone working at Wal-Mart with seven kids, you are hurting us.

We have to start holding each other to a higher standard.

We cannot blame the white people any longer.'
Dr. William Henry 'Bill' Cosby, Jr., Ed.D.


It's NOT about color...

It's about behavior!!!


Friday, March 6, 2009


Just give me 10 hours...that's all I ask!

Rolling with the punches

It's been a bit of a hectic last couple of days.

My fil had fallen in his room on Monday. Seemed okay for a couple of days and then he couldn't get out of bed. His back was killing him. The seniors home had called me to come and check him out....isn't that their job? He was in a foul mood...again....so I gave him some Advil and told him to let me know in the morning, if the pain was worse. Well he attempted to call me, got my voice-mail and left a blubbering message full of many profanities. Then the nurse called me....*off I go*. I asked him if the pills had helped the night before? "Yes"....good start. I dress him up, wheel him down to the car and take him to the hospital....where we proceed to spend the next 5 hours.

The emergency room of any hospital is never a fun place, thankfully we got there just ahead of the "crowd". Then a woman came in and I tell ya, if she seriously wasn't going to cough up a good chunk of her lung....well, it just sounded that ugly. She decided to sit two chairs away from us. Then another woman came in ready to hurl with stomach pain. Another guy comes in all white complaining nausea. A woman was on a stretcher in the hallway hurling non-stop....it was pleasant. Did I ever mention that I've never been very good in hospitals? You learn to get over it!

Anyways....we waited in the e.r. for an hour and 15 minutes, then they stuck us in a room at the end of the hallways....I was sure we'd get forgotten. 45 minutes later the doctor shows up...asks some questions, does a quick look over....and then sends us for an x-ray. 15 minutes later we're taken back to the end of the hallway and wait another hour and a bit for the doctor to come back, just to have him tell us..... It's a slight compression fracture on the 11th or 12th vertebrae....nothing can be done except pain meds and time....go home.

My fil is most frustrated and of course...his frustrations are being hurled at me. I gave him his pain meds today...twice, before I coordinated his doctor, the pharmacy and the home. He seemed in better spirits at noon and had even gone out for a walk....so the pills are doing there job.

Maybe it's time for me to start taking something?

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

It's always a nice day to get arrested.

Deanna is going to love this one....

Yesterday I went to court...the Supreme Court of B.C. to be exact. Not for me....no, of course not...for the never ending saga of the child molesting, pedophile, woman preying, sexual creep that we once used to call....our child's TKD master.

I decided to come and show my support to one of the victims and really to "show my own face" and let the scum bag know that I knew more than he thought I knew. As it turned out.....had had managed to slink out of his previous court appearance (his sentencing) by "allegedly" schmucking his car and being taken by ambulance to RCH...whatever. The real story was that he had driven his own car into a tree and had called the ambulance himself...to avoid going to court.

So I showed up yesterday in New Westminster....wanting to hurl. You can't imagine how bad my heart was pounding at the mere thought of coming face to face with this low-life again. "T" said to me...."now you know how I feel"....I really did. We went into the court room at 2 and waited....and waited...40 minutes later "his" lawyer shows up claiming that he headed to the Vancouver court rather than the New West one...whatever. Still no little shit. Calls are made. Calls are made. Calls are made. 50 minutes later the judge comes in and says...."I want a warrant for this man's arrest and I want him brought to my court asap". There was no bs'ing this guy...he was awesome! The idiots' lawyer fumbled over his words and had no explanation as to why his client wasn't there. The judge didn't give a hoot.

Court over....I was driving home when I spotted "his" old van driving on the freeway. What do I do? I sped up, caught up and followed. The license was different but I had a feeling. He turned where he was supposed to turn, he turned again where he was supposed to turn....I was sure it was him.

Well I spot his three "instructors" (who were the only ones to show up at court) together in the back alley of the TKD school....I followed the van around the parking lot. I was wondering what I'd actually say to him...."you scum...aren't supposed to be in jail"...it turns out it was his son.....who the courts were also trying desperately trying to get a hold of...with no avail. So what does a "shit disturber" do???...I call one of the victim's, who in turn...calls her lawyer and let her know that the son is "alive and well"...within minutes the cops are outside the TKD school, as well as outside the "residence".

Well the update is that....everything's been transferred over to the son...the vehicles, the school...everything. The coward is nowhere to be found....probably skipped off to Korea or in a hole somewhere eating rice and water. Sorry but...I have "personal" issues with this guy and I know...he deserves more than he's going to get.

Sadly...he'll get a slap on the wrist...despite the fact that he's a scared little rat shit. Yeah...I'm using that kind of language because....I feel that strongly.

*shudder*...and to think that he held my baby doll in his arms.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009


I've been suffering. This is by far the worst year for my allergies to date. Not sure if it's because I'm getting older?...or if it's just the air. I know there's plenty of others around me that are suffering as well. Usually they hit me and I die for a day and then that's it...we're going on day three now and I'd still like to...claw at my eyes, swallow broken glass and shove a box of Kleenex in each nostril. I look so pathetic with the red puffy eyes and chafed splotchy skin around my nose and upper lip...seriously pathetic. It's the Alder tree that gets me...how do I know? I took allergy shots for three years and it got me nowhere! How long does it take for these trees to do their thing? Be done with it already! *pass another Kleenex please*

Monday, March 2, 2009


I'm sitting here checking out Marilyn Manson videos on YouTube with my boy Al...should I be concerned?

Music List

So Erik left me a comment wanting to know what I've been listening to....

Well here's my latest additions....

"Halo" - PussyCat Dolls or Beyonce...I can never remember if theses groups are together or solo.
"I'm a Window" - Matthew Good....local boy who graduated a couple of years ahead of my sister.
"Flood" - Jars of Clay
"Inside the Fire" - Disturbed...I have a very wide taste in music!
"Interstate Love Song" - Stone Temple Pilots
"Sour Girl" - Stone Temple Pilots
"Knockin at your Back Door" - Deep Purple
"Driver's Seat" - Sniff 'n' the Tears
"Violet Hill' - Cold Play
"Single Ladies" - Beyonce
"Apologize" - OneRepublic
"Silent Lucidity" - Queensryche
"Jet City Woman" - Queensryche
"I'm Not Over" - Carolina Liar
"Sex on Fire" - Kings of Leon
"Walking on a Dream" - Empire of the sun

And thanks for your suggestions....I'll definitely give them a try....although I already have "Get Low" on my iPod...nothing is a "bit much" for me! ;o)