Monday, February 18, 2013

I don't want to be a hero....

I'm not a hero

Not sure if this is working but.....so many people tell me what an inspiration I am...that I get them to "fight the fight"...that they're inspired etc.....my husband says he's "proud"....I didn't do anything....I got sick....I fought it...I'm here...for my kids....my love....for my friends...to show them that it's possible to kick this nasty to the curb.  But what you don't know....is.....I'm crying...right at this moment....for what I've gone through, for those I've met, I've befriended, I've lost, those fighting now....you can't imagine how many friends I've made through this whole ordeal.  For my uncle...in hospice...diagnosed only a few weeks ago....done.  For the mother of 2 small children (younger than me) who passed away and I shared chemo treatments with...for "O" who was re-diagnosed when I was going through chemo and is doing the ride with me...

I put up a strong front but....every day is a fight....just to stay strong and hope and pray that this does not return.....I look at my beautiful children and there's just no way I'm ready to leave them yet....I don't think I ever will be but....definitely not yet.

It's hard work...I'll be here in June....hopefully I'll be here in December...hopefully I'll get to attend 3 beautiful weddings!.....hopefully even my 50th anniversary...see once you get this demon...it never really, really leaves you.

I think I just need a really good cry...if I remember correctly I cried when I was first told...but that's it...I'm a strong bitch...I think....but I have y soft side.....right now I'm folding.

lol...me...at my finest!

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Butt Break

I gave my butt a break today...in fact..I gave myself a break today....I think "she" needed it!

But I am so itching to get on the roads....love, love, love my new babe!

Friday, February 15, 2013

Every once in a while....

....I go back to this blog..... http://jlunot.blogspot.ca/2011/12/i-will-post-soon-im-doing-fine-just.html#comment-form

Not sure what I'm looking for...she's been gone a year now....perhaps just hopeful.  It's good to have hope!

Knucklehead

Ha!!...just proves it's been way too long and I'm way older.....turns out I just didn't know how to "shift"....whatever happened to those little levers we had???

I get it now!

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

My little "Hurka"...pronouced "Hooorrrrka"...needs a little adjustment.

Took her for a spin...dropped her down to the lowest gear and then couldn't do anything else.  She just needs an adjustment...or a kick in the ass...lol.....tomorrow....she travels with me and we pick up my wind trainer....and then get right back in the saddle.

Today was a poopy day.....back is sore...probably from sweating on the weekend and catching a draft!  As well...I had to go by one of my "main" clients today...we were broken into last night.  Some idiot decided to take a fire extinguisher and break through our glass door.....took a nice 52" tv and CPU....freaking idiot.  In the heart of downtown....how do you not see a freak with a cpu in his backpack and a tv on a broken wall mount under his arm pit......what the heck is this world coming to?!?!.....no....don't answer!?

Saturday, February 9, 2013

This would be me......

...and my new found love!

My new best friend

....here she is....


I was sensible...I went with an aluminum frame with some carbon....totally saved on the cost which  was a little more realistic for our budget...which also allowed me to purchase a tripdometer, Sugoi shorts, Shimano shoes, water bottle holders and a helmet..all for what I was going to pay for a bike alone!  I am totally in love with this baby and just need to come with a name for her....my husband chose "Hurka"...it's a type of sausage in Hungarian/Slovak...soooo yummy!!  Love the name...just not so sure it sits well with it being a name for a bike.

It was too funny because the guy in the bike shop says to me..."ok, zip up your vest, I'll get you a helmet and we'll take it for a test ride"...I'm like...."yeah....no....this is downtown and it's been 19 years since I've been on a "moving" bike!"...."oh you'll be fine!"  I'm happy report...a little shaky but I did not fall off and quickly got used to my new baby...now I'm itching just to get back on her!!!!

Erik....you'll be happy to know that I didn't spend nearly what I had originally set out to....and I"m really happy about that...so's the hubs!!! ;o)  And I'm still thrilled!!


Friday, February 1, 2013

At the finish line....

....I wish share something important...you'll just have to wait....trust me...it's a big one!

Training is up and running...

...I plan on taking the pooch for a good walk tomorrow morning!...I haven't actually measured but it's about 7 km....and a good portion is a nice steep hill...perhaps I might provide pics tomorrow...that is...if I make it! :o)

I have settled....

...this will be my baby soon!

http://www.specialized.com/ca/en/bikes/road/ruby/rubyelitecompact

Ain't she purdy?  No seriously...recommended and "price dropped" for me...I'm getting this baby through an accounting client of mine...yay!