Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Well here's a little something....

I found this on another blog that I read regularly... I know I said I had lots to write about...and I do....but haven't been feeling all that great last couple of days....blood levels don't seem right.....either that or I've just done too much....let's hope for the latter...k?!

If it helps
we're only renting
The car you drive
The house you bought
Those shoes
That ring
This muffin
It all passes through
like it was never yours
to begin with
(Especially the muffin)

I'm the caretaker
for now
of this hat
that fridge
these cells
and once my term is up
they will move on
to the next caretaker
in some shape
or another entirely

Be the container
that is clean and good
to hold these things
for the time they are yours:
these babies
those thoughts
this poem
And be prepared
to let go
at a moment's notice
(or not)
when the moment comes
And if you feel sad
or heavy
or small
let go
let go
let go
All the stuff in the world
is not half as wonderful
as the room left behind
once it's gone.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Life

I'm coming back...just a couple more days...lots to say....."life" just got in the way. :o)

Monday, June 20, 2011

For all you techies out there....

....my boy put this together..not bad...not bad... xoxox


Monday, June 13, 2011

Retiring



Am so very much loving this song as of late....Mr. "Amos" there is pretty good on the eyes too...at least in my opinion.

So today I had Herceptin treatment #????  I've lost count now.  All I know is that my dear sweet oncologist is retiring at the end of the month (and so he should) and I'll be moving over to someone else...which I'm not worried about....it's just not "Dr. Chemo".  But I have to be grateful that I'm not moving to the BC Cancer Clinic to become "just another number".  So far we're doing well...well, as far as a good fried boob is concerned.  Radiation is not much fun...in fact I think it's harder going through radiation than it was chemo.  I'm literally burnt...inside and out....the pain resembles that of a very very bad sun-burn and.....an infant sucking life out of you for 2 weeks straight...yeah...it's that bad.

Tomorrow I start the first of 4 "electron" radiation treatments...when is this nightmare over?

On a different note...I had a fabulous weekend away with my hubs...just down to Seattle and its' outskirts but....it was soooooo good to get away. 

When I came home I decided to play around with my daughter's newly bought "fake nails"....all of them except one had fallen off....I'm still sporting a beautiful thumb nail.....how the heck do these things come off?!?!?

Well my nights have been mostly and completely awful....and I'm falling asleep "at the wheel" here....time for bed...

Thursday, June 9, 2011

16\20

Tomorrow I have my 16th of 20 radiation treatments...my nipple is about to fall off...sorry to you more "sensitive" ones xo....seriously....it's like I've exposed my boob and upper back to the summer sun for two days straight.  Or another way to sum the feeling up is...I'm "breast feeding" again....remember that????...."teeth"!!??!?  I'm giddy with excitement to know that that is the end of this type of radiation.  I already have a square marked on my boob for the next four treatments....but hello....I'm going to Seattle tomorrow!!  I don't care that I'm going to pick up a rear window for a '69 Mustang Mach I....I get to stay overnight in a hotel (in Bellevue) and go to restaurant and have someone else wait on me....I'm stoked!!  Knowing my luck though I'll get my period...sorry.....then again...I should be pretty much "dry" from all the drugs.  Hey did I tell you....I'm going away for 24 hours!!!  Hell ya!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Fried...

....is what I am...and not in a Jamaican way!

Two more radiations of the "full" variety (ie.my entire boob and part of my back)...and then 4 of the "focus on the tumor" variety next week...until then....I'm heading to Seattle and yes...I booked a hotel for the hubs and I...no kids...even if we are only picking up a rear window for the Stang...I don't care....we' re going to the CheeseCake Factory!!!

Friday, June 3, 2011

I want to write....

.....about something other than radiation and sizzling boobs...but it's way past my bedtime and I'm surprised I even made it this late...(it's 9:30)...I'll see you tomorrow...I hope.

In the meantime..I'm boiling water.