Monday, May 31, 2010

Grumpy

I'm grumpy.

I'm grumpy with the hubs.
I'm grumpy with my dad.
I'm grumpy with my car.
I'm grumpy at the world.
I'm just plain grumpy.

Apparently I'm not allowed to be....grumpy.

Well *pphht*...I'll be grumpy if I wanna be....don't tell me not to be....cuz that'll just make me "grumpier"....and "you're not always perfect either".

Saturday, May 29, 2010

I don't get out much....

....well I do, but it's never for myself.

So a lo-down on what's been up with me.....

I don't think the antibiotics are working, although they're great for keeping the weight down....the bathroom is still my best friend. I just hope that the "Biaxin"...doesn't give me a "biaccident"....ha ha ha....I'm so freaking funny?!? Yah...no. I think it's something else....allergies....asthma....high blood pressure pills and their side affects. It's funny how by about 5:30 p.m.....I'm feeling better....well, except for the tummy.

Teddy started his job last week....4 days worth of work gave him $167.00...he keeps this up, he'll be earning $600 a month....not bad for a 16 year old, never listening, sleeping till noon, eating me out of house and home, living in a room that I can't even move in. Well I cleaned it today (while he was at work)....no booze (or drugs) to be found....just spits and empty Dunkaroo packages.

I took Al to pick up his "We the People" $600 BMX bike today.....he paid $450.00 of it....I thought it was only fair, considering I helped Teddy out with his back-pack and hiking boots....which he's only used....twice. I didn't see Al today....he's "in love".....at dinner he mentioned that he thought he had lost 2 lbs already.....I just hope he keeps his eyes forward.

Krystina had dance class(es) today....okay....so she's not quite old enough to be "into" anything....really.

Tony worked on the car.......surpise, surprise....actually that was after vacuuming the house.

Grandpa went out.....of course it's gotta be on a day that I'm not around much.

I visited with my fil.....he gets a new denture on Tuesday and calls me each and every day wondering if "this is the day"......

The memorial I went to the other day was beautiful.....sad....but beautiful..... My old colleague was a tremendous inspiration to me.....both alive and not.....he was truly an amazing person and his family carries on his amazing attitude.

I turned down a "job"...I know, I know.....so totally not me....but I did it....I can't do anymore.....okay....you may *pat me on the back* now.

Well, with the meds I haven't been feeling myself and have been hitting the sack pretty early (only to wake around 2:30 a.m. and toss and turn for the next 6 hours).....

I know I have more to say but....the bathroom beckons.

btw..."D"....got your message...thanks! I'll make sure Grandpa brings something on Monday.....schnitzels?...lasagna?....baclava?.....I'll figure it out! ;o)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

The news....

....is good...I guess.

I don't think I've ever been more nervous in the doctor's office in my entire life....and I ended up waiting 45 minutes, which didn't add anything positive!

So the doctor comes in and asks how I'm feeling....and then tells me "well, I've gotten the results of your x-rays and sure enough....you're sinuses infected....as well, there is a cyst in one of the cavities." "Really???....but I don't have any pain?!?!....I mean I've noticed a difference in the quantity and quality of my excretions but.....usually I get terrible pain in my head/face/teeth". "Well, here's the report...you can read it yourself."

*WHEW*....to say the least!!! You can only imagine what was going through my brain...what with a persistent cough and gribblies...remember....this is how my dad's "Lymphoma" started. Of course there were other things popping through my brain....spots on the lungs...enlarged heart....my brain works overtime!!

So now I've spent $122.00 on antibiotics (that are already making my stomach cramp and me lovin' the toilet...tmi...I know)....I've got oral and nasal....Tony's not happy about that...but I think he was a little nervous as well....as he was totally "thrilled" that it wasn't anything more serious....20 years and the guy still cares....gotta love him!!

On a different note....I'm going to a funeral tomorrow....a colleague of 15 years passed away....a major inspiration and wonderful man/father/husband....64 and gone.....I learned so much from him. I just hope the stomach doesn't do any hurls....

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

??????

I know I haven't been around much...just busy..trying to get my garden going and my head above water....and I've managed to keep breathing. But alas....a new twist to my never ending saga.....

I've had an issue with a persistent cough and mucus (tmi) issues for a while now...actually probably about a year or so....but in the last month it's gotten worse. I thought it could still be the bp meds...or allergies. Well anyways....it's gotten to the point where I wanted to make sure it wasn't something else...something that needs to be attended to....especially since my lungs were getting kinda sore, my voice hoarse and the cough worse. So I went to the doctor. He sent me for chest and sinus x-rays and put me on an inhaler....that was on Friday. It was a long weekend and I got a call first thing today....I've been with this doctor since I was 13...that's 30 years....he's only ever called me twice before....when I tested positive for mono and when I had a lump in my boob...at 16.

I'm heading into his office tomorrow at 12:15...to say that I'm a "little" bit nervous is to say the least...I'm 43 now....we're not playing around....so if you're kind enough to send some good vibes, say a prayer, bow down to Krishna...whatever is your "kick"....it would surely be appreciated....because really....I/we don't need any bad news!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Surprise...surprise...to really...no surprise......

Teddy confided in me first myself on the weekend...and then to Tony....

"I regret quitting Tae Kwon Do".................all I could do was say "just give me the word and you're back at it"...................

Kids.....................................

Piece of advice...

....never....never...never... pick up the cookie tray (straight out of the hot oven) with your bare hands...it hurts and is sure to bring some blistering...*ouch*.

Cuz life is just like that.....

Two doctor's appointments today...all I can say is "thank goodness he was in a decent mood"! After yesterday I was dreading the worst....but I think he realized that he was being unreasonable. I'm keeping my head above water, as far as work goes.

Krystina's good.
Al's healthy again.
Ted's working....yes...you heard right....at this very moment he's working at iHop with one of their assigned shirts and hats...I'm sure that must've gone over well?!?!
Tony's good...over a cold and building a fence to ward off the ugliness of the "farm house" next door.
My dad's in bed...as he always is by 9 p.m......won't go there tonight.

Life is always complicated....I don't sleep well....and my days are filled with chest congestion... I have a doctor's appointment on Friday...at first I thought it was a side affect of the high blood pressure medication.....it feels more like asthma or something...whatever the case...I'm finally going to get it looked at.

Still deciding on what to do with the whole car situation....obviously it would be cheaper to just repair the van....just not sure if it's worth it....so many decisions.

The kids are fighting...again...I mean the two youngest....cuz the one I thought would give me a headache is at work!!!!! Okay...I'm leaving the noisy ones and heading off to pick up the so called "tax payer"!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

No need to delete me....

....I am still alive and...here. Life's been out of sorts as of late....gee, it seems I write stuff like that frequently?!?!.....but it's true. Have I thought about giving up the blogging...well, maybe not "giving it up"...just taking a break from it. I've been dealing with my emotions.....frustrations with my dad....frustrations and near tears with my fil.....appointments....clients....Revenue Canada....death....farting dog....dying van....it never ends.

Yes, tax season is over.....per se...now I'm just trying to come back to the surface. The van is literally...dying and we're wondering if it's better to dump $5,000 into it for a.....new water pump, new tires, new brakes, new head gasket...blah blah blah....or do we just get a "newer" vehicle?!?! I spent the day with my fil...joy....he's getting a new bottom denture and can't stand where he's living now. Teddy starts his job tomorrow and I've been all over the city looking for a pair of black, polyester pants...that fit....and black socks...thankfully, he had shoes....he'll get a shirt and a hat from work...yay. I just finished cutting his hair....oh the lengths I go. The dog continues to let 'em rip...and I continue in my search for the perfect "Flex". Al's sick and stayed home today....I've been having chest issues and no...I'm not talking "boobage". Last week I tried tuna sashimi for the first time and now....it's all I can think about.

And now....I think I'll go and rot on the couch for a bit...until it's time to have a very unrestful night in bed....tossing and turning.

But life is good....cuz we're alive.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Excitement...

....he got the job! Starts Wednesday....and he did it on his own! Very proud of my eldest...pretty soon he'll be moving out and handing me the grand kids.

On a side note....test drove a 2010 Ford Flex....there ain't no going back....I'm 100% and thoroughly in love....amazing drive.

Monday, May 10, 2010

How much should I charge for rent?

So tomorrow the eldest is going to a second "meeting/interview" at the local iHop. Why would he be called back, if he was going to be told that he didn't get the job. So we're figuring it's a done deal...considering a couple of classmates put in a totally good word for him....let's just hope that he doesn't get bored on the first shift and end up quitting...I mean seriously...he'll be cleaning dishes after alot of disgusting eaters....that's not to say that everyone is, but seriously.....have you seen what people leave behind?!?!?

In other news....I'm teetering between getting my van repaired (a pricey idea) or buying or leasing a new vehicle...more precisely a Ford Flexx....I took a look at the Dodge Nitro, but it only holds 5 and well....if we all go and we want to go in some assembly of comfort....it's gotta be a 6 or 7 seater. I have my eye on a charcoal grey (not silver) one....no leather, no sunroofs....fairly basic....4 wheels is good though.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

And how was your "Mother's Day"?...

...mine was fantabulous!...thanks for asking!

I went to bed early the night before, I woke up early today (cuz I knew the hubs would wake me with his snoring....actually it was the birds)....rotted there until 9 a.m. Then the hubs proceeded to make breakfast, I had a client drop some paperwork off and I picked up the girl from a sleepover...only to begin "gardening" at 10:45 a.m.....to finish at 3:00 p.m. and proceed to slice my index finger...badly...on a root...I was trying to pull out. The eldest made me lunch. The middle child brought me a glass of wine and some cheese at around 2 p.m. and I enjoyed a wonderful bbq of hamburgers and hot dogs as well as a bottle of "J Lohr"...with dinner. I brushed the dog, dug the garden, enjoyed the sun... totally "no" computer. I also got a nice new "gardening set"...and wonderful, wonderful cards....they're all wonderful but....it's the one that Teddy hand made that sends me to the moon....but Al...he sweat bullets out there in the garden today....I have a wonderful family that loves me....I'm so very grateful and....love them even more!

Now to get another bandage.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Don't touch my beer!

So I've had a few "Bud Light Lime's" sitting in the fridge for a few months...I can't drink them unless it's stinking hot...which it has not been. You remember the post I made about finding the two empty cans in Teddy's headboard??? Well, last weekend I was putting groceries away (in the downstairs fridge) and I totally noticed that I was missing one of the four...beers.

Bugger stole another one...apparently he was really "thirsty" after a long hike!! Has he ever heard of "water"?!?!?

I'm back at the gym....*ouch*.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Decisions, decisions

So the old guy seems to be "adjusting"...thankfully! He will probably lose his damage deposit from the "assisted living" side....yeah well, when they have to take apart the radiator and out comes bunch of garbage and 30 or so odd pills...I kidd you not...I'm not surprised. I picked him up a new radio (until the t.v. arrives) so that he can have some entertainment, other than the woman down the hall who howls every minute or so.

I have the opportunity to join the team of 150+ engineers in a company stationed in the heart of downtown....30 hours per month...do I want it? I talked to the husband....I'm undecided...seriously. I told my accountant that I need at least two more weeks to get through a mess of an account and then maybe I can consider (as they'll just be maintenance from that point on). Having my fil in extended care will lighten the load slightly but....damn it...I just went back to the gym today. Still....30 hours at $30/hour....means I could afford a new car....not that I'd drive it into the downtown core...that would just be stuuuuupid! Still....a really good opportunity....Aleks has already said that he'd like to "enter the business"...he needs money...I could use the help.

For now....all of my "hobbies" will have to wait until I retire.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

I think/hope things are gonna be alright!

I haven't really been on the computer....well, as I know it anyways....I'm always connected to the damn thing with my BB...

But yeah...no work anyways!

So between Krystina's boyfriends" lacrosse games and my good buddies art show....I snuck in a visit with my fil...he's doing ok. I think he'll be ok. Which makes us all feel a whole lot better. He's in a better place for sure...even if he's not 100% ready...he is better off.

Which means I can sleep better tonight....if only for tonight.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Another move

  • So tax season is over....for 11 or so months.
  • I enjoyed a few glasses of wine last night...you bet I did.
  • Today we moved my fil from assisted living to extended care....it was not/will not be easy.
  • I will go visit tomorrow....to make sure he's adjusting..............
  • .....and not chewing someone's head off.
  • My husband asked if I loved him.....I smiled....
  • ....and said "you know I do".
  • I baked a cornmeal bread....it's still baking.
  • I also made Thai rice and a very yummy lentil soup....with Chorizo.
  • I did not make it to the gym....I feel bad.
  • Krystina has a cold and..."cat breed".
  • I bought "Avatar" tonight......
  • ....bye bye!