I have been on an emotional roller-coaster today.....tears flow at a drop of a....well, pretty much anything.
A young mother of 39 (two boys 7 and 3) who had chemo with me on a few occasions passed away on Wednesday. I got to know her and I can honestly say that I'm devastated.... She fought a hell of a fight and got through another Christmas but ended up succumbing this past Wednesday. May she rest in peace and may her family know what an incredible inspiration she was to everyone that knew her!!!
I'm just at a loss today....I guess reality hit again....I've had it easy, but I also know that things can change in an instant. I'm fighting this fucking disease myself and so when I get strange looks from people when I tell them the procedures I'm going through to stay healthy....well....*phhht*.
I've made too many "cancer friends" through this....and that's not to say that I don't want them to be my friend...it's just I wish we didn't share this particular "disease"...but I love them all....and that's what's so hard.....really...honestly....we're just living on borrowed time.... Sure some of us might get 10 years, maybe 20 and maybe even 30....but at 44....that's just not enough. I'll take what I can get and I'll make the most of it....but I will also cry for those that don't get that "extra time".
And with that.....God rest Mrs. Jackie Lunot.....you put up a hell of a fight....may your children always know what a brave and strong person you were!!!